Inbetween Time

It's not that I don't think the teenage years were akward, I just feel like the true akward time in life is in your 20's. Where do you fit, out of college or bypassed college all together. You deffinitly don't fit back at home and if your like me starting your own family isn't even a thought.

Where do I fit in? If I had a dollar for everytime I asked myself that, I wouldn't have to ask it anymore because I could just retire and go on endless vacations. My mind is whirling with thoughts about how I want to help people, jobs i'd like or jobs i'd hate, things I'd like to do and places I'd like to see. In fact, my mind is so full off stuff, that most of my time is wasted in my head so I never get to do anything I am thinking about!

I was one of those people that switched their major about 30 times. Started as Social Work and ended with Business - how does that work??? I was so discontent that I even switched schools. I have always longed to be one of those people that just knows what they want to do in life. Everything falls into place easily - they have a boyfriend/girlfriend who they are happy with, they stay with them and they follow a normal career path picking a major sticking with it and getting a job out of college.

I got a job. After a year of looking, I did indeed start a job. 4 Months later I quit. Wasn't happy. Sometimes I wonder if it was the job, or if it was me? To my credit in this situation it was the job.

What to do now? Back on the job market, go back to school? Of course I have grandiose ideas about going back to school, getting super involved and loving it and slipping right into a career path that I can follow after graduation. Reality? The programs don't start until next September - that's right a year from now.

I would just like to help people, make a difference in this world that seems super stressed out and like it maybe headed in the wrong direction. I would just like to do something good with my life so when I look back I can be proud.

But for now I am stuck. Stuck in my head?? Could be, but I'm not sure how to get out!